🎧 Healing Audio Library

Use these soundscapes for emotional regulation, nervous system grounding, and trauma integration. Click play and let your healing begin.

Calm Background Ambient

Gentle atmospheric background—ideal for grounding, journaling, or CPTSD self-regulation.

Healing Meditation

Perfect for deep breathing, inner child work, or background audio for reflection prompts.

Soft Ambient Loop

Looping soft piano tones that support focus and safety while reading or writing.

Peaceful Ambient Space

Floaty, space-inspired ambient track—great for disassociation recovery or body-awareness work.

Emotional Recovery Tones

Piano and synth combo that gently moves emotion—ideal for evening posts or heart-heavy moments.

🌀 All music is royalty-free via Pixabay Music.

Thursday, July 17, 2025

Chocolate and Degradation: When Sweetness Turned Sour

Post 40 – Chocolate and Degradation: When Sweetness Turned Sour

After giving birth, my body was changing in ways I wasn’t ready to accept. I was vulnerable, exhausted, and grieving the loss of my old self.

One day, Jeff came at me with a bottle of chocolate syrup. What should have been playful turned cruel. He poured it over my bare stomach and chest, the cold stickiness making me flinch.

Instead of laughter, his words cut deep: “Now you look like the fat pig you feel like.”

That moment was more than humiliation. It was a deliberate act of degradation — body shaming wrapped in a disturbing performance of “fun.”

I cried in silence that night, scrubbing myself raw, but the shame didn’t wash away. It lingered, tattooed on my mind long after the syrup was gone.


Tactics Breakdown – Sexual Humiliation and Control

  • Exploitation of Vulnerability: Targeted postpartum body changes to deepen shame
  • Dehumanizing Language: Used cruel insults to break self-esteem
  • Coercive Play: Disguised abuse as “fun” to confuse and control
  • Emotional Manipulation: Created trauma triggers linked to body image
  • Power and Control: Used physical acts combined with verbal abuse to assert dominance

You Deserve to Feel Beautiful

No one has the right to degrade you — especially not in moments when you’re healing or vulnerable.

Your body is yours, and it deserves kindness, respect, and love.


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